vendredi 30 avril 2010

Happy Birthday to...

ME!!!!

Yes, it`s my birthday today and guess what... my "boyfriend" send me an EMAIL stating that he is breaking up with me!!! Talk about fantastic timing!!!! Do I deserve such a treatment? Definitely not! Yes i am heartbroken... but feeling sorry for myself won`t get me anywhere... i`m not saying that I`m happy and fine about the situation... Truthfully it`s the WORST thing that someone I love could do to me....

Well, I cried a lot yesterday, enough to fill the great lakes altogether... I went to work, talked to my psychologist (i`ve been going there a couple of times now to help me deal with everything going on in my life: the demons of my "ex"-bf, problems with my house (pyrite), stress at work etc..) I don`t want to go down... I want to be HAPPY!!! and I deserve to be HAPPY!

Today, I took the day off, changed my relationship status on facebook to ... single... yark... but hopefully someday, true love will come my way exempt of demons & problems... it was good to get all the birthday wishes on my wall... it really helps me go through my day...

Still, send me all the positive vibes I can get cause I truly believed in what Mr. Casino told me about "our" future together (getting married, living together, adopting my son, trying for another baby, etc) Well, I still wish him to be happy and alcohol free... but I hate the fact that he ended our relationship on my birthday... this is really painful & heartless... anyway, don`t wanna ruin my day over this.

Adam Lambert! Yes, I bought his album "For your entertainment" and I just love it! It gives me the energy to go through my day!!! I`ve just recently discovered him...cause his song was playing on the radio...

I`ll post a video of him here...

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Well, take care.... Like Glambert would say: It messed me up, need a second to breathe....

On that, send me positive vibes... I need it to feel good, to heal fast from this disaster...

10 commentaires:

Alain a dit…

Bonne fête mademoiselle :) xx

Meredith a dit…

Merci! :) Ca me fait du bien de recevoir ton souhait de fête! :-)

Anonyme a dit…

Men. Well, if he is using alcohol, he is impaired and not making healthy choices. It is way too difficult to make a life with someone who uses drugs or alcohol to cope. It is painful to go through such a loss. I am sure your friends and family will be there for you to help you through, not to mention your therapist! Sending you much love and positive vibes!

Lynn a dit…

Happy Belated Birthday, Meredith!!! What kind of person would break up with someone on their birthday??? I'm sending you positive vibes to meet someone better than that!!!

Meredith a dit…

@ Blue & Lynn : Thank you very much for your comments, wished & positive vibes... I have good days and less good days... Trying to focus on the positive aspects... Easier said than done but still... i`m working on myself...

Shikha a dit…

hey, found ur blog...
well I would jus say don't worry .. n be happy b'coz no1 has the right to make u said on your birthday or infact on any-other day.

ta.

me a dit…

Pumpkin! I am so sorry I missed your birthday! Happy 21st! As for asshattery that is man, if it would help I would be MORE than happy to send my boy toy to you, granted he has a lot of wear and tear and quite frankly I don't know why you would want him...punching bag? blow up doll? Let me know sista - I will shove a stamp up his....well you get the picture....things will get better, you and your favorite boy deserve better and it will come, don't give up!!!

Meredith a dit…

@ me: Thank you for your wish & comments.... you made me laugh with the punching bag!!! I never thought I`d be 21 again! ;)

I`m taking care of myself & my son!
I`m taking it one day at the time... How are things with you? How`s your jeep?

@ Shikha Thanks for your comments! I appreciate it!

Sébastien Haton a dit…

Well, let me send you some real positive vibes from the other side of Atlantic ocean. I have plenty of good vibes and I often don't know what to do with...
;-))
Best regards.

Meredith a dit…

@ Shaton : Well i`ll accept your good vibes with real pleasure! Merci de me lire et je vais regarder ton blog aussi!

:)