a pink candle

Hey, i`m doing better... I think my "cried-out" found some help... I can say that (even if everything isn`t to my liking) i feel good... I feel that energy coming around & inside of me.... My son is definitely a great source for me to go on... Work is ok, i`ve achieved their objectives... just need to get 90% + instead of my 88%...

Everyday, I lit a pink candle for an hour. During that time, I lay in my bed, and focus. I visualise things I want for me and my surrounding. I ask for protection too. I feel this energy helping me, releving me....

Thanks to everyone who wrote me comments, or just come by to read me... merci!

I`m looking forward to warmer sunny weather.... this week end, my son has his practice for his skating show (which will be held on april 24-25)... I`m turning 37 in a few days.... 37, already??? Sometimes, I feel like I`m barely 25... I guess it`s a good thing...

Yesterday, over lunch, my son (5) asked me:" where is heaven...and when we`ll go to heaven, we`ll all be together... and he was naming everyone in our family... He paused and said: Mr. Casino is part of our family, cause I like him and miss him...and I want him to be in heaven with us..." I thought it was sweet.... deep inside, I hope Mr. Casino will be set free from his demons and return to us, we want him to be happy... we really do care about him... I just hope he can feel that... Hope he won`t stay away so long and be back with us...

On Wednesday, I went to my local drugstore for meds for my son... Then, on the radio was this song playing... it made me think of Mr. Casino, cause he told me over tha last few months that this song was the only one he likes of Madonna...so there is the video taken from youtube...

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