all in a month

A month ago today I met my boyfriend! Things are going pretty well and smoothly! We really do enjoy spending time together! I feel very good when I`m by his side!!!

I never imagine that i`d be happy and feel love again after my terrible break-up with Mr. Casino. My boyfriend is all the opposite of Mr. Casino. He doesn`t drink, he`s not a gambler. He`s a handyman, he cooks, he`s very clean. He likes to cuddle and just holding me in his arms! He gets along well with my son, my family and my friends. So far, he completes me well! I don`t know how many hours we spent outside by the fire just talking and relaxing together.... We both enjoy making fires, go biking or for a walk, go to the movies, festivals, etc. We enjoy cooking together... well as you can see, things are going very well!!! My son is so happy when he brings his dog to my place...

Last Saturday, we went to my sister to see my new niece, then we all went to the Hot Air Ballons Festival in St-Jean sur Richelieu... We went on rides, looked at the hot air ballons and then we watched Adam Lambert in concert!!! I was really looking forward to his show!!! I had a great time!

So, i`ve been busy spending time with my boyfriend, my son, family & friends! I am enjoying every minute of my summer! I feel great!!!!

soir de pleine lune...

Tourlou! Ce soir, c`est la pleine lune... je l`ai regardé s`élever dans le ciel bleuté... elle était énorme et rose... juste sur le bord de la rive sud au coté du pont Laviolette... c`était paisible...

J`étais assis sur le bord du fleuve, à coté de celui qui, depuis une dizaine de jours est souvent dans mes pensées... Qui l`aurait cru.... tout bonnement, la vie a mis sur mon chemin cet homme au regard rieur... il a tellement un beau sourire aussi...

Après l`échec de ma relation avec M. Casino, je croyais bien que jamais je ne serais capable d`en guérir... J`avais fait une liste de ce que j`aimerais avoir... Bien, à date il répond à pas mal tout mes critères...

Il a grandit dans l`ouest canadien, il est bilingue... il a une belle voix... Il est très grand et bien bâti... il est sportif... il a joué au soccer quand il habitait au BC... Il aime regarder Holmes on Home, et il est un M. Bricole!!! Il a quelques années plus jeune que moi (il a 6 ans de moins que moi)... Il cuisine... j`ai bien hâte de gouter à sa cuisine... Il n`est pas alcoolique ni gambler...Il a des belles valeurs familiales... C`est certains que nous sommes seulement au début et nous avons pleins de chose à apprendre l`un sur l`autre, etc...

Je l`ai rencontré par hasard... il est le beau-frère d`une amie... Ca fait 5 sorties que nous faisons ensemble.... Le courant passe entre nous... ca clique comme on dit!

Ce soir, assis sur le banc à regarder la lune, il m`a demandé s`il pouvait mettre son bras autour de moi... j`ai dit oui et j`ai appuyé ma tête sur son épaule... je me sentais bien... hier soir, en prenant une marche il m`a dit: "je suis content de t`avoir rencontré et j`aimerais vraiment apprendre à te connaitre..." Entk, ça me fait du bien!

Je prend ca au jour le jour... mais je trouve que c`est une belle surprise! photo prise sur google...

à suivre....

WASPS!

Hey, yesterday on my way to our local fair with my son... We got there, then i felt a strong burn on my toe... There it was.... the evil wasp! First time in my life that i get a sting from a wasp.... So i decided to ask the paramedics (they were just a few feet away from me) if they had something to clean my toe.... I thought i`d be ok and hit the rides afterwards....

NO! In a matter of second my toe had swollen, it was red and a sharp pain went from my toe to my hips.... Then, i couldn`t wear my sandal anymore. It hurt really bad, and i started to get difficulty breathing... Since the fair is only a block away from the hospital, they drove me in their mini cart...

So they gave me a shot of epipen, benadryl, and other med... hooked me on a cardiac monitor... My doctor said that from now on i`ll have to always carry my epipen...next time could be fatal.... that s great news!!! not! Well definitely 2010 is not my dream year.... Doc said i was lucky it was on my toe cause if it was on my hupper body , well, it would`ve been quicker...

So, i`ll keep myself away from the wasps if you know what i mean.... I`m under the impression someone put an omen on me this year....

Gone fishing!

Hello! Tomorrow morning @ 5 am , i`ll hit the road: direction Fairhaven, USA! Yes, i`m going with my son for a few days to visit my friend... So, hopefully i`ll hit the beach under the hot hot sun! yes sir!!! Also, we`re going fishing near Cape Cod on Sunday on a private boat!!! Should be interesting!

I need to just lay on the beach, checking the ocean and the waves... Let go of my "problems" you know what I mean... Well , about that i am doing much better now! Yes!!! I am healing from my heartache... FINALLY!!! Well, i still have some feelings about him... from time to time he pops in my mind... but what can I do? He decided to go his way... destination unknown... My son is still talking about him... I let him express his feelings... Sometimes, i don`t understand why all of this happened....why he came back into my life and hurt me this way... make false promises about a happy loving relationship...(moving in together, getting married, adopting my son, etc...) Well, i guess i`ll never truly know... unfortunately. sad.

I`m finally falling asleep without sleeping aids... i even started to remember my dreams when i wake up... I don`t feel that huge pain anymore... Thank God!!!

Talking about dreams, another sign that i am getting better, is that i`m starting to dream about meeting someone new... That feels good! Even though i don`t know when love will come knocking at my door....

Last dream i had was about Damian Kulash from Ok Go... beats me why i had a dream about him... maybe i have a soft spot for him... I like his look, his songs... (This too shall pass). Like last year when i started to have a soft spot for Nick Hodgson and feel like a teenager again... Anyway i doubt that i will bump into one of them! lol! Nonetheless it feels good not to think about Mr. Casino...

I started work after 3 weeks of vacation... i like it... of course i don`t see all the job opening i could`ve gotten if i had moved there... but we never know what can happen... positive thinking!!! As long as i`m making enough money to send my son to private school....

So, for no particular reasons, i`m posting pictures about Fairhaven, Damian and Nick... all of them taken from google...

See you back next week!!! Take care you all!!! :)

La St-Jean

Tourlou, aujourd`hui c`est la fête de la St-Jean Baptiste... il a mouillé toute la nuit et le soleil se fait attendre... donc les plans pour aller passer la journée à L`Ile sont suspendus... J`ai plus souvent vécu une St-Jean grise qu`ensoleillée...

Mise à jour:

Ma nièce est née!!! (la même date que Mr. Casino) (j`avais un feeling que ça arriverait!)

Mr. Casino: rien. c`est comme si rien ne s`était passé entre nous. il m`a effacé de sa vie. je suis dans le processus de guérison... j`ai des hauts et des bas.

Tremblement de terre: ce fût bizarre, j`ai vu l`eau dans ma bouteille se mettre à vaguer puis l`unité murale s`est mise à trembler...ça duré environ 30 secondes...l`épicentre de 5,5 était situé en Outaouais (la région de mr. casino)

Pyrite: Bien j`ai reçu mon rapport... 30% de pyrite dans les fondations de ma maison... donc en 2011 je vais recevoir un appel de M.Pelletier qui va me donner la date des rénovations (2011 à 2013)

Ils vont soulever ma maison, démolir mes fondations et tout reconstruire! Ah! Que j`aimerais que Mike Holmes fassent mes rénovations.... Je lui ai écrit mais il rénove en ontario...

Je suis en vacances encore quelques jours, ensuite c`est le retour au travail... 30h/semaine, du lundi au jeudi...

J`ai rencontré quelqu`un sur le bord du fleuve il y a quelques semaines...j`était sur le banc où jadis Mr. Casino et moi avions fait l`amour... j`ai demandé en prière de mettre quelqu`un sur mon chemin... je me lève et arrive un homme en vélo. On se sourit...puis commence une conversation... Je quitte car l`heure du souper arrive... en retournant vers la maison de ma tante j`entends:-Hey, attend... tiens voici mon numéro de téléphone, si tu veux jaser... (il a le même prénom que Mr. Casino!)

Je lui ai donné le mien aussi...(j`sais pas pourquoi j`ai fait ca...)

il m`a téléphoné à quelques reprises... pour moi le courant ne passe pas. je ne suis pas prête... cependant ça m`a aidé de voir que quelqu`un me trouve belle... you know what i mean.

alors, voilà... grosso modo ma vie trépidente!!!

photo prise sur google

forgiveness...

Ok, from now on, when i`ll feel sorry for myself, i know this person will be "there" to help me see life in a different way... such an inspiration... i shall never complain about my life again...

yes i may feel pain, i may want to improve my life... i just want to do well and succeed with my life...I just wanna be HAPPY, wanna be well...

I`m sorry if i`ve hurt someone...i was hurt.. i deeply & sincerely regret it. i have no excuse. I`d like to right my wrongs...

this is the link : http://http//lifewithoutlimbs.org/

picture taken from google...

what do you think?

My grand-mother passed away on October 12th 1985... on the day of her birthday... I was 12... I lived with her til the day she passed away...

On May 29th, it was my uncle`s birthday... We went to a local restaurent in my hometown... Lately, with all the problems i had with my failed relationship... I`ve been praying and talking to my late grand-mother... I`ve been asking her to send me a sign... a sign that everything will soon be alright... that all the feeling i`ve felt in the past few months were real... that my prayers would get an answer....you know what i mean....

Well, today, I was looking at pictures I took recently... then something odd got my eyes... I said nothing and showed the pictures to my family... we all saw the exact same thing on one picture... yes, there she was... my late grand-mother in one picture I took.... There was nobody looking like her at the restaurent and no one was sitting where she appears...

So, it`s a treasure I cherish! I feel blessed to have that picture! So here it is....

please do not reproduce.